it’s just my thought and views

today i turn 20.

a change of the front number of ‘1′ to the number of ‘2′. i am afraid i am no longer teenager but a young adult learning to take up responsibilities and started to see what the real world are meant to be.

the last 365 days i was 19 years old, i

= i started to blog

= met a car accident on the way to work

= learn about disappointment of life

= learn about selfishness of the people around me

= failed to achieve what i needed to achieve

= went to BED@autocity for the first time

= went to SOHO for the first time

= buy hair clips for the first time for noodle ( i shy shy la)

= got a new job

= seriously got PUNK’D at work from three culprits

= MONster inc. was found by 2 S girls and me

= met up hong-hong and poh piah for the first time after 2 or 3 years

= finally graduated from college as a Dip. in Science holder

= started filming the ‘tales of ayam tergolek’

= met jaja, botak, ms spo, sophie and nab

= i finally realized friends come and friends go, the true one stay

= i finally know what is my goal or goalS

= i knew life is not easy

= high school teachers are all very nice except u-know-who-la

= i’m still a baby pumpkin to old pumpkin’s eye

last but not least

= suddenly transformed into cat wor!

-just joking-

i met ML jiejie and this is how our stories begin. the tales of pet cat and its owner will always be something money cannot buy!

been wanting to answer your question that day but i just do not know how to put my feelings into words. so i chose to ignore you even though you asked me twice. indeed, i was panic when i received your message. some how i was. lady boss was trying to calm me down that time.

“c’mon, relax kid!”

i apologized if i over reacted. i was worry since the day you told me. i never thought it would be that serious. it been four months since i knew you. i made a promise to myself when i first joined *our current company* that i should not be close with anyone. it seemed like i broke my own promise but it was a promise worth to break.

ever since i met you, i become a happier person, gaining more confident and becoming a better person. learning to believe in myself. of course, live life like tomorrow never comes.

i would always asked for a second opinion from you because i trusted you. i gave you my trust which i never did after some betrayal happened in the history.

you know me well by now. i do not know how to tell you what my mind was thinking. let my eye do the talking. when i said i do not care and prefer to let you be you, you should know deep down i cared. if i ever started feeling annoyed, you should know i’m starting to worry. if i ever start teasing you, i just want to bring fun out of it.

give me time. i will put them in words and tell you.